I am not one to have a special word for the year. I need EVERY word the Lord wants to send my way! But this year the idea attached itself to me; I couldn’t shake it off. I asked others if they had done it, why and what was their experience with it. Finally I decided I’d just ask the Lord for a word for 2019. I took a couple of little quizzes just to see what insight they might provide and No, I really don’t put much stock in that kind of thing. But two separate sets of questions gave me the same word; a word I would not, at first glance, have chosen for myself.
My immediate reaction the first time was a scoffing, “Well, that’s not right.” The second time I gave it a little more thought and had to admit, I am a closet coward. At least, I think my fearfulness is hidden from the world. In truth, I am shaking on the inside when I have a conversation with someone for the first time. If my hands are hidden, I am squeezing fingers and digging my nails into my palms. A car trip, lunch out or telephone conversation with someone I don’t know fairly well can put me in knots. I run from conflict of any sort. I shudder at being asked to do something for fear of failure. Not totally freaking out on airplane trips takes lots of prayer on my part. And let’s just say I have digestive issues and leave it at that.
At the same time I’m an adventurer. I like to order something new off the menu, visit new places and take the road a little less traveled. I’m not a “drive by and look out the window” type of person. I want to hike down and get my hands dirty. . . in safety. What a crazy combination! But maybe we’ve all pretty crazy combinations at that.
Back to the word – courage. I began noticing it in several things I am reading. Courage isn’t the absence of fear. It’s the plodding on in the face of fear. So in that sense, it seems God has already taught me quite a bit about it. The Bible is full of admonitions to be strong and courageous because He is with us.
“Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you.”Deuteronomy 31:6
I just noticed an upcoming guest speaker for the women of our church – Jan Silvious. And her topic? “Courage for the Unknown”
Okay! I get it! My word for the year is courage! And can I just say, “that’s a little bit scary.”?
Oh my goodness, Lord. You have got some work to do on this girl! Let’s go for it! It’s bound to be an exciting trip!